Raquel Reed

what can I say about my trip to san fran.I guess when you have this whole idea in your head of something thats going to be amazing your just really trying to convince yourself of it,a build up only ment to be let down,brought upon by yourself.A relationship cannot be built on fantasy or illusion  ,or on one person for that matter.All I was was something New from ny,something you couldn't catigorize,something you've never seen,you said it yourself. You fed me so many lies,and my mistake was believing them,and ignoring my friends,who were right all along.I burned way to many bridges for what? I learned alot on this trip,what's important,and what's not.Looking for someone to try and fill a hole in your life is only going to bring in the most fucked up people you've ever met.You hated guy's for being stereotypical to girls,yet you turned out to be the same thing you hated after the first night. You put on this act of being "the nice guy" yet inside your the worst one iv'e probebly met.

You stole my heart,but now im fucking stealing it back.

Let me tear you a new one for a second....

You have so many problems and you don't even relize it.Your friends all know it except you. It's so sad,I thought i could help you,even after I herd all these things,but you cannot help someone who dosn't believe they are doing anything wrong,or believe in reality.All you can do is run,and run fast.schizophrenia is a serious thing,look it up maybe you'll understand yourself.goodbye.

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on a lighter note i got to see some of my real friends,this was probebly the best part of the trip and the unexpected.Got to see erica my tan mac princess,and reno by gauged out boyfriend,hung out with cris,hes way chill.shot with dirrty diana,the photos rock cant wait to put them up.got in too many fights while i was there,like always.left my laptop on the airplane..that was the worst.strip clubs and getting vag dragged on my face,and winning a free porn..always a nice way to cheer up a trip.hahah

Really let down a friend,I always let him down though:( what's new.

whats next now.